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    • Warren Jeffs - Sex Addict
    • Evangelical Sex Scandals
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    • Herman Cain Accused
    • Eliot Spitzer - Client #9
    • John Edwards Love Child
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    • Penn State-Jerry Sandusky
    • Rev.Chuck Phelps Cover-up
    • Former Rep. Eric Massa

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  • Paid For Sex-Prostitution
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  • Boy Scout Sex Scandals
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  • Pimps-Sexual Trafficking
  • The Franklin Cover-up
  • Michael Guglielmucci Hoax
  • Ted and Gayle Haggard
  • Bill Goddard- Sex Groomer
  • Bishop Eddie Long Affairs
  • Cathlic Preist-Pedophiles
  • Catholic Sex Crimes
  • Abuse Enabling Bishops
  • Joshua Duggar- Child Porn
  • Warren Jeffs - Sex Addict
  • Evangelical Sex Scandals
  • Jeffrey Epstien-Offender
  • President Donald Trump
  • Former Pres. Bill Clinton
  • CIA - David Petraeus
  • Herman Cain Accused
  • Eliot Spitzer - Client #9
  • John Edwards Love Child
  • Arnold Schwarzenegger
  • Indiana Rep Mark Souder
  • Eric Massa Groping
  • Gov. Mark Sanford Affair
  • Penn State-Jerry Sandusky
  • Rev.Chuck Phelps Cover-up
  • Former Rep. Eric Massa

JOSHUA JAMES DUGGAR'S SEX ADDICTION PROBLEMS

Sexual predator's most oftentimes groom their victims, providing many fun filled activities & gifts.

By Synthia Esther

January 20, 2022.



 Joshua Duggar was born on March 3, 1988, and is an American convicted sex offender.  In his recent past, he was also a reality show personality, appearing on the popular  television series "19 Kids and Counting".  He is the eldest son out of 19 children, by way of his parents  Michelle and Jim Bob Duggar,   While as an adult he was (from June 2013 to May 2015), also the executive director of FRC Action, a lobbying political actions committee (PAC), sponsored by the Family Research Council.


He left this working position when news reports told that he had sexually molested multiple under age girls, including one who was under five years old, when he too was a minor, aged 14-15.  His spiritual and religious family, in turn lost in more ways then one as well: One of their children is charged as a child sexual abuser and molester, and  their well liked  "19 Kids and Counting" reality show, was cancelled on July 16, 2015.  


Other scandal land controversy has followed Josh, and his marriage to wife, Anna, and their seven children.  As it was reported that he paid for "An Affair Guarantee" with two subscriptions on AshleyMadison.com (People.com - Retrieved Jan. 19, 2022).  Which Gawker reported costs him  "as much as $986.76."  AshleyMadison.com is an infidelity website which touts the well selling slogan, "Life is short, have an affair...".   


 All of  which leaves a trail of evidence that supports the fact, that Joshua Duggar is suffering with lust strongholds, as well as  vexing sex and pornography addiction problems.  Fast forward to April 29, 2021:  Joshua Duggar was arrested by U.S. Marshals on charges of receiving and possessing child pornography.  


Gerald Faulkner, a special agent for Homeland Security Investigations, stated the files on Josh's computer were "in the top five of the worst of the worst that I've ever had to examine."  One of  the videos allegedly in Duggar's possession, created by convicted sex criminal for life, Australian, Peter Scully, depicts the rape and torture of an 18 month old toddler.    Josh was found guilty on all charges on December 9 , 2021.  Currently, at the time of this writing, (Wikipedia reference resource), he is incarcerated, awaiting sentencing in the spring of 2022.



COURT TRIAL DEFENSE FORENSIC EXAMINER - MICHELLE BUSH,  CLAIMS HIGH LEVEL REMOTE HACKING OF JOSH DUGGAR'S COMPUTER IS A POSSIBLITY:


Was Josh's computer tampered with by way of remote access by a high level hacker?  As Forensic examiner for the defense, Michelle Bush did lay claim in this court case.  Bush citing that she was leaning toward the theory of remote access based on "three factors."

First was the fact that some of the illegal videos were streamed via the computer's video player despite already being downloaded -  was something she said she hadn't seen in any of her previous cases.  Bush casting as "something bizarre",  in that it indicated that the videos could have been accessible to outside user's via the router, even though the router essentially then sent the videos back to the work computer.


Second, Bush said she noticed the router's ports (or specific reference points for internet activity) were changing as the videos were viewed.  Citing "port forwarding" and it could, in some cases, be used to mask the true user: "That's a pretty sophisticated level to obfuscate your activity."  Third was that "universal plug and play" had been enabled by the work router, which Bush said created external weaknesses in the network -  (Reference Source: People.com, retrieved Jan. 18, 2022).


Is there doubt placed about Josh Duggar's innocence of child pornography crimes, his prosecution and defense?  Yes, of course there is.  As  high powered sophisticated crime hacking does exist.  Take for example the Inslaw  -  Promis software crimes, and the Justice department's linked case?   Back door technology, and the hunting down of the infamous 'Octopus" that Danny Casolaro was investigating.   He ended up dead in  a bath tub, supposedly by suicide,  While many to this day claim he was assassinated.  A popular meme being, "Who killed Danny Casoloro?".   


OK, I digress.  However, my point is made most clear,  It is God our Creator, who knows all (Daniel 2:22).  Likewise, He holds most close, to watching out for, and helping His Children rid themselves of vexing sin problems.   So that we may grow up to become more like our Heavenly Father, who is Holy, Holy, Holy (Isaiah 6:3), Likewise, so is Big Brother- Watching You!   And by way of all Intrusive Surveillance George Orwell 1984 Style, you can and will most likely be caught in sin and on camera if committing sick heinous crimes. 


THEREFORE, THE QUESTION REMAINS TO BE ASKED:


IF  JOSH DUGGAR'S COMPUTER WAS INDEED HACKED AND TAMPERED WITH, DOES THAT MAKE HIM A TARGETED INDIVIDUAL (TI) BY WAY OF COVERT CRIMINAL ENTRAPMENT?   


Resource reference: www.techchronicity.com - to learn more about a TI'S  plight and fight in the Big Brother's watching you world in which we live.  


If a covert targeted plan against Josh Duggar was true, looming questions no doubt remain in this case;


Why would Joshua Duggar be the targeted Individual victim of such a diabolical hacking?   


Who in the world would want to bring down a most popular, beloved Christian family, by way of plotting such a wickedly false agenda and plan?  


Did Michelle Duggar's Arkansas, Fayetteville City Council, Robo alerting call about *Transgender males using the girls school bathrooms"  have anything to do with such an unholy plan and hatred against the Christian right? 


THE TRANSGENDER BATTLE MOUNTS ITS WINGS TO FLY....AND SWIM TOO:


WSB Radio show host, Erick Erickson, said on Jan. 19, 2022, that he was advised by close associates and friends to stay away from talking about Transgender issues and related problems.  Another outspoken voice on Transgender views and opinions, is conservative, Glen Beck, who too has stated much the same on his radio broadcasts.  Thank God some voices of reason are still out there sounding an alarm that this isn't right,, nor fair!   


News Reports flaunting Transgender, University of Pennsylvania collegiate swimmer, Lia Thomas, who was at one time a male swimmer, now turn female competitive swimmer, breaking all female swimming records!  In turn, the real to life, birth born female swimmers, have not got a chance to display a win, by way of their God given talents.  For no matter how hard they may try, they cannot beat, 22 year old, Lia.  Who was a man, and now proclaims to be a woman.  Even Olympian Transgender, Caitlyn Jenner, weighed in on this topic.  Jenner was confirmed on several news source reports as stating:" Lia shouldn't compete with women".  


"For three years, Thomas had competed for the men’s swimming team at Penn. After undergoing more than two years of hormone replacement therapy, the transgender woman now competes for the school’s women’s team, and her fast times have sparked a debate from the starting blocks to online message boards to cable news networks." - Reference Source: WashintonPost.com Reported on:  January 10, 2022 at 9:00 a.m. EST6418.


The Washington  Post wrote about Michelle Duggar's - Transgender Robo call:


 "In the call, Michelle Duggar claims that an ordinance pertaining to housing, employment, and public accommodation discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation or gender would allow "males with past child predator convictions that claim they are female to have a legal right to enter private areas that are reserved for women and girls."


 The Fayetteville Flyer also posted Mrs. Duggar's robocall transcript, in full.  I have copied and pasted the same without the contact information as was originally provided:


Hello, this is Michelle Duggar. I’m calling to inform you of some shocking news that would affect the safety of Northwest Arkansas women and children. The Fayetteville City Council is voting on an ordinance this Tuesday night that would allow men – yes I said men – to use womens and girls restrooms, locker rooms, showers, sleeping areas and other areas that are designated for females only. I don’t believe the citizens of Fayetteville would want males with past child predator convictions that claim they are female to have a legal right to enter private areas that are reserved for women and girls. I doubt that Fayetteville parents would stand for a law that would endanger their daughters or allow them to be traumatized by a man joining them in their private space. We should never place the preference of an adult over the safety and innocence of a child. Parents, who do you want undressing next to your daughter at the public swimming pool’s private changing area? I still believe that we are a society that puts women and children first. Women, young ladies and little girls deserve to use the restroom or any other facility in peace and safety. Will you speak up for protecting women and children? Call ..........,".  

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FACTS SERVE TO CONFIRM, THAT TRANSGENDER ISSUES AND PROBLEMS HAVE USHERED FORTH THE CREATION OF A GREAT OPINION DIVIDE, WITH MUCH HATE SPEECH SWIRLING IN THE MIX.  COURT TRIAL DEFENSE FORENSIC EXAMINER - MICHELLE BUSH,  CLAIMED HIGH LEVEL REMOTE HACKING OF JOSH DUGGAR'S COMPUTER TO BE A POSSIBLITY,  ALL OF WHICH LEAVES ONE TO PONDER AND WONDER IF THERE IS MORE TO THE JOSH DUGGAR CHILD PORN POSSESSION STORY THAN MEETS THE EYE?  


The Joshua Duggar's sad story plight, was touted as one of the "Top 10 Big Scandals of 2015", by USA Today.   With The Washingtom Post citing that Joshua  Duggar the sex addict child molester, as one of the 15 most hated people on the internet for that year.   Which   pointedly confirms the public  vehemently,  zealously dislikes spiritual hypocrisy!  As does God (Revelation 3:16; Matthew 6:24).


All though he did not know it at the time, Joshua's father, Jim Bob, sought help for Josh, from trusted male sources, that also suffered sexual lust and addiction problems.  Christian ministry worker,  Bill Gothard, was said to be one such Christian ministry help resource, yet Gothard too suffers sexual dysfunctional  problems (reference our xxx.hisway.com, Bill Gothard page to learn more).   


In July 2003, Jim Bob,  had also taken troubled Joshua, to meet Joseph Truman Hutchens, an Arkansas State Trooper and family acquaintance.  Who in turn gave Josh a firm talking to.  In 2012, Hutchen's himself, was charged with his own child sex crimes! - (Resource: Wikipedia).  As such, the lack of serious educational addiction help and resources in Joshua's case, was grossly  slack and most sad. 


A key conclusion in part, as to why this might be so, relates to the family resolve dynamics, that  in Christian grace we must  forgive.   Duggar family members interviewed by police said that they felt safe in their home and had forgiven Josh for his past sexual molesting behavior.  As in God's mercy we state: ,"But for the grace of God, there go I."  Another words, this could happen to anyone of us, if we do not hold true to God's steadfast most holy commandments.  As the sin plague is for ever lurking at one's soul door.  


We must remember that God requires true repentance of sin, with out which, there can be no forgiving grace.   When our sin problems are not resolved on a spiritual level, the physical conditions of one's life remain toxic,  The resulting  manifestation's of life's sin plagues, are trials, tribulations, pains and sorrows, which are forever growing in strength.   The end of which is a death curse, as Satan comes only to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10).


Jim Bob and Michelle issued a website statement regarding Joshua Duggar's guilty verdict.


"This entire ordeal has been very grievous.  Today, God's grace, through the love and prayers of so many, has sustained us.  Our hearts and prayers are with anyone who has been harmed through CSAM (Child Sex Abuse Molestation).  In the days ahead, we will do all we can to surround our daughter-in law Anna and their children with love and support.  As parents, we will never stop praying for Joshua, and loving him, as we do all of our children.  In each of life's circumstances, we place our trust in God.  He is our source of strength and refuge.  Thank you for your prayers."


A website dedicated to the Duggar family, listed comments.  An Anonymous reviewer (November 17, 2021 at 12:39 PM) gave a comment that was, in my opinion,  of worthy note, from a Biblical perspective:


"I don't think anyone doubts for a second that God is in the redeeming business but what does that have to do with this situation?  Josh isn't asking for forgiveness, he is denying that he did anything wrong and is accusing others of using his laptop to blame them and to let them take the punishment.  His wife is surrounded by people who only encourage her and praise her for her ability to allow this kind of abuse in her and her children's life as if that is a sign that she is a Godly mother and wife.  What kind of  man could cause and then watch the brokenness of his wide and be ok with this?  What would you say to your daughter if she was in this horrible situation?  God in His mercy tells us clearly in His word that we are free from any spouse that commits adultery let alone child pornography crimes.  We don't win more favor or more love from God by allowing these crimes against ourselves and others to go on.  If the abuser wants redemption from God THEY are responsible to ask and attain that from God, but that doesn't mean the people and children they abused have to stay any longer in the nightmare the abuser has created in their lives.  They are Free and not under bondage to abuse.   Remember, Josh isn't asking for redemption, he is blaming others for his sins."


Synthia Esther Responds:


When a person goes against their inner spiritual voice of reason, and the Holy Spirit continues to convict them, it will make a person feel sick with illness.  A sad fact about addiction is that their sinful gripping problems,  thrive on secrets.  An addict  will oftentimes do many odd and bizarre things in order to protect their addiction.  Pastor and Hillsong Album singer, Michael Guglielmucci , even made use of a cancer hoax to hide his sex and porn addiction form his wife, family, church and friends (you can reference his con job story on the  www.xxxhisway.comn website).


I do not know if Joshua James Duggar is guilty of receiving and possessing child pornography.  What I do know is that God knows the secrets that we keep.  And there have been cases of sexual abuse claims, that were not true.  One of which was the Bernie Fine case that I once wrote about back in 2011.:


Former Syracuse Associate Basketball Coarch, Bernie Fine, Accused of Alleged Child Sexual Abuse


BERNIE FINE ACCUSED OF SEXUAL MOLESTATION


By Synthia Esther - December 2, 2011Source: Marien Garcia, USA Today 


Zach Tomaselli, 23, of Lewiston, Maine, alleged that Bernie Fine, Syracuse former basketball coach, sexually molested him while he was with the Syracuse men's basketball team in Pittsburgh in 2002.   On November 18, former ball boys Bobby Davis and Mike Lang, confirmed that Fine had sexually molested them when they were former ball boys, which Fine commented was "patently false."  


Tomaselli appeared on Anderson Cooper's daytime TV show Wednesday, November 30, 2011. Also Wednesday,  Pittsburgh police public information officer, Diane Richard stated,  "We are not going to be investigating."  With federal agents having searched Fine's former campus office according to an a law enforcement official familiar with the investigation who asked not to be named.  It was unclear what, if any, materials were seized.  Fine's house was searched on Friday, December 2, 2011.  All these accounts about Fine, were later proven false, and  untrue.  Lawsuits ensued by Fine and family, even included media outlet  ESPN being at fault.   


On November 9, 2012, Federal prosecutors announced Fine would not be charged regarding the criminal investigation of child molesting accusations.  Unfortunately this did not help Fine regroup and recover,  The case "cost him his job, turned him into a recluse, and forced him to put his house up for sale" (Source reference: Wikipedia).   As the saying goes, you can't always get the genie back into the bottle in slander cases, as public doubt will often remain.  



UPDATE: DUGGAR DEFENSE TEAM SEEKING A NEW TRIAL JUST ONE MONTH AFTER CONVICTION: 


It has been reported by US. Magazine and other news sources,  that Josh Duggar's Defense team is seeking a new trial due to the failure to provided "exculpatory evidence", regarding a former employee who "regularly used the desktop computer in the months and weeks leading up to May 2019", when the political activist is said to have downloaded the inappropriate material that led to his arrest.  The motion argues that "law enforcement had failed to meaningfully investigate the possibility that anyone other than Duggar may have committed the crimes charged."


Technology concerns are a deep pit for the world at large, and I write  about such problems and issues often: www.techchronicity.com  Hackers can vastly tamper with evidence, plotting all manner of  crimes and falsity.  Deception being a sign of the end times (Mathew 24:24).


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CO-0DENPENDENCY STRONGHOLDS:



 I  have met hundreds of women, and personally counseled well over a hundred,  who were involved with a sex and lust addicted mate.  Many of which were in the grip of Anna's sad plight, of thinking (and many knowing) they have a child sex abuser for a husband.  Those who stayed with their sex addicted abusing mate, were almost always in turmoil and most certainly in denial.  Remaining spiritually and emotionally depleted, having to monitor their mate's life, in order to help keep him from sexually acting out once again.  Such unhealthy reactions are set in place, when one is a co-dependent addict.   The only one a person can change, is their self!  A wife or husband can't complete you, only God, through the power of His Holy Spirit,  can do that. 



We are spiritual beings in a fleshly physical  body.  "Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil.  This will bring "health" to your body and nourishment to your bones." - Proverbs 3:7-8.  "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the well spring of life." - Proverbs 4:23!


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I have provided below my written self help educational resource page, for those in the grip of Co-Dependency addiction.  As well as a written help text on God's Grace and Forgiveness.  Be sure to visit our free  ministry outreach educational websites as provided,  to read more about my first hand experience and relationship problems with a proclaimed, Christian sex and pornography addict.  


Thanks be to God, that I found out about my ex's double life,  before I said, "I  Do!"   However, had I married, I would have left him after finding out the horrors of his sick and most evil double life of sin.  As such a decision is a biblical right (Matthew  5:31-32; 19:8-9),   So is the decision to stay in some cases of unfaithfulness, as the story of Gomer in the bible does so too confirm (Hosea Chapter 1).  


If  you would like to learn more about sex God's way, and related  LGBTQ  issues and problems from a Christian, Biblical perspective, you will find free resource help at:  WWW.SEXHISWAY.COM.  


FOR ADDITIONAL SPIRITUAL AND BIBLICAL FREE EDUCATIONAL HELP RESOURCES PROVIDED BY SYNTHIA ESTHER MINISTRIES VISIT:  WWW.SYNTHIAESTHER.COM,  WWW.SYNTHIAESTHER.NET, WWW.SACREDPURUSIT.ORG,  WWW.SACREDPURSUIT.COM,  WWW.TECHCHRONICITY.COM .

 



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CO-DEPENDENCY ADDICTION-REALITY DEULSIONS BY: SYNTHIA ESTHER

Are you the glue fix that is constantly striving to hold your marriage & family together? Read on.

 

CO-DEPENDENCY - DELUSIONS OF REALITY


By Synthia Esther


Do you seek to affirm yourself with the approval of others? Do you measure your self esteem by how much someone needs or desires you? Do you discount your own thoughts, feelings and desires on behalf of pleasing others? Do you ignore your values and beliefs while seeking and clinging to the values and beliefs of others? Are you waiting for someone to evolve and change their way of thinking?



People pleasing and approval seeking sums up my definition of co-dependent behavior, which in turn can lead to a compulsive addiction. John 12:43 “for they loved praise from men more than praise from God.” Mathew 10:37-39, “Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; (38) and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. (39) Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.”



The goal of the co-dependent's relationship with an addict is to maintain the false delusion that all is well, when in reality the relationship is a living hell on earth. When you are obsessed and fearful of speaking up and being honest in a relationship you fall for the false illusion that your co-dependent behavior will be a positive factor in keeping the relationship in tact.



MARY WINKLER – MY UGLY CAME OUT



Mary Winkler shot her husband Mathew, the pastor of Fourth Street Church of Christ in Selmer, Tennessee on March 22, 2006, in the back while he was in bed. After years of domestic problems, abuse and criticism she had reached her boiling point. Mathew Winkler also had a pornography habit, often requiring his timid wife to wear a wig and sexy platform high heels like the women prostitutes and porn activist he often watched. He also made Mary submit to sexual activity she never felt comfortable doing.



Men and women with active pornography habits are most often abusive. Their core heart, mind, and soul is consumed with feeding their self-centered, self consuming addiction. Like a child in a candy store, a person addicted to pornography will eventually get sick from consuming too much eye perversion that often has the abuse of women as its sexual content. In their secret double life and sickness they often become hostile, angry, and aggressive, with rape being a common fantasy they act open (reference article: Addiction Definition And Hypothesis).



Mary Winkler, 33, states on tape while crying during questioning by Alabama officials: “Its just a lot of stupid stuff. I love him dearly, but gosh, he just nailed me in the ground. The first of our marriage I just took it like a mouse, didn't think anything different. My Mom just took it from my Dad, that stupid scenario.” Mary Winkler got a job at the post office which taught her to stand up for her self. “That's the problem. I have nerve now, and I have self esteem. My ugly came out.”


Winkler was found guilty of voluntary manslaughter. She received a three year sentence, spent a total of 7 months in custody, is facing a $2 million dollar civil suit filed by the parents of her slain husband, and hasn't seen her three daughters in over a year. During a Oprah Winfrey show interview, September 13, 2007, Mary still professed her love for Mathew, stating she misses him. She also confirmed wanting to get her children back. 

Updates.   Reference Resource: Wikipedia - 


 In August of 2008, Mary was granted full custody of her three female children. 

 In 2011,  Mary's sad  abuse - cause and effect story was made into a movie, "The Pastor's Wife."


In  April of 2020,  Mary's case and story was in a new episode "The Pastor's Secrets" in the sex and murder series on HLN cable network.


BREAKING THE CYCLE OF ABUSE AND CO-DEPENDENCY


Mary Winkler snapped the day she shot her husband Mathew. There was another way to stand up to the abuse. If she had sought help...if she had just gotten in touch with needed resources from a battered womens shelter or crisis center. She could have called the police to help her obtain a restraining order, gone to the local library for books, research, or on line computer resources, called the National Domestic Violence Hot Line 1-800-799-7233 or 1-800-799-SAFE. Now her husband is dead, she is still suffering, and her children are being raised by someone else.


The co-dependent mind often ignores the truth of who they are, preferring to believe in a delusion that they are “what and who” another person needs them to be. The pay off for their co-dependent, passive behavior is that they keep their illusive dream of what could be alive, rather than face the reality of what is. Co-dependency is often played out in a submission and dominance, power and control relationship filled with abuse, denial, and delusion.


CAMERON AND JANICE HOOKER – A SLAVE AND MASTER RELATIONSHIP:


Janice Hooker, an epileptic, helped her husband Cameron, who had a sadistic addiction to pornography and sex, kidnap Colleen Stan (a.k.a. “Carol Smith”), who spent the next 7 years as Cameron's slave. Janice and Cameron even had sex while Colleen hung suspended above them after enduring a brutal beating and torture session. Colleen was locked in ventilated wooden boxes, tortured, electrocuted, beaten, repeatedly assaulted, and made to live in a wooden box crafted by Cameron underneath the couples water bed.   Janice gradually started seeing the light, as she read the Bible and began attending a Nazarene church.



You may ask why would someone do such a thing? Extreme co-dependency behavior does not happen over night, instead it is a gradual process. Ephesians 4:18, “They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts.” 2nd Peter 2:19, “They promise them freedom, while they themselves are slaves of depravity – for a man is a slave to whatever has mastered him.”



Janice's actions are not uncommon as many co-dependents turn a blinds eye to what is happening around them in order to protect their self centered desires and interest. Across the world co-dependent personality types often watch with a blinds eye as their own children are molested by a parent, grandparent, step-parent, cousin, uncle, etc... The more you compromise your conscious, the more evil abounds.



NO ONE CAN COMPLETE YOU EXCEPT G0D


Placing the approval of man above the approval of God is a deceptive, attractive snare that promotes idol worship. “In the midst of deception; in their deceit they refuse to acknowledge me, declares the Lord” (Jeremiah 9:6). No one can complete you and fill the empty hole in your heart except God. It is God's desire for His children to look towards Him as their source of approval and self worth.


Many are the woes of the wicked, but the Lord's unfailing love surrounds the man who trusts in Him (Psalm 32:10). Placing our feelings aside, we learn to trust in the Lord with all our heart, leaning not on our own understanding (Proverbs 3:5-6). No longer in denial we make the choice to live life according to God's will, instead of our own. We choose to grow in faith, instead of giving in to self fulfilling desire, counting our lessons in life as a blessing.



With personal choices made, we follow a sacred pursuit path on a new road of personal transformation, eternal significance, honor, spiritual purpose and growth (Proverbs chapter 2). We are not alone as God walks with us on our journey, healing the damaged, emotional wounds of our past. We ask God to direct our footsteps according to His word: let no sin rule over us. Redeem us from the oppression of men, that we may obey your precepts (Psalm 119:133-134).



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DIVINE DESTINY AND THE PATH OF FORGIVENESS




By Synthia Esther



Eyes have not seen nor ears have heard the plans God has for His children, all of which are part of our "Divine Destiny". Each of us have been equipped by God with talents suited to our individual capabilities, destined before our birth. God even provides us with the right environment to bring our purpose and talents together. When we align our selves in obedience to God's word we follow the divine assignment He has for our lives. Perhaps your environment has been one of abandonment, abuse, pain and sorrow. You may have gone through life feeling hopelessly unloved. While people may often let us down, God never does!


As Christians, we are assured of His loving grace and faithful sovereignty. Psalm 5:11-12, " But let all who take refuge in You be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you. (12) For surely, O Lord, You bless the righteous; You surround them with your favor as with a shield. Psalm 89:8, " O Lord God Almighty, who is like You? You are mighty, O Lord, and Your faithfulness surrounds You."



The Lord provides us with illustrations of His abiding love, favor and providence through out the Bible. The story of seventeen year old Joseph is one such example. Joseph was favored by his father Jacob, more than any of his other sons because he had been born to him in his old age. Jacob even made a richly ornamented robe for Joseph to wear. Joseph had a dream which alluded to him reigning over his brothers and told it to them. He had another dream and once again told it to his brothers, "The sun and moon and eleven stars were bowing down to me." 



His brothers were jealous of their father's favoritism towards Joseph and the fancy coat he proudly wore. Being Fed up with their young brothers attitude and dreams they seized the opportunity to kill him. Joseph's brother Reuben suggested they throw him into a water less cistern pit instead. Reuben said this because he planned to rescue him and take him back to his father. However, the other brothers changed their minds when they saw a caravan of Ishmaelites coming from Gilead on their way to Egypt.



 Who do you think sent that caravan? Judah said to his brothers, "What will we gain if we kill our brother and cover up his blood? Let's sell him to the Ishmaelites and not lay our hands on him; after all, he is our brother, our own flesh and blood." His brothers agreed and sold Joseph, minus his coat, to the Ishmailites for twenty shekels of silver.



When Reuben goes to the cistern he sees Joseph is missing, and in anguish he tears his clothes. He then asks his brothers, "Where can I turn now?" They devise and execute a cover-up plan by slaughtering a goat then dipping Joseph's robe in the blood. They then take the robe back to their father saying, "We found this. Examine this to see whether it is your son's robe." Jacob then thinks a ferocious animal had devoured Joseph, goes into mourning, refusing to be comforted.



Meanwhile, the Ishmaelites took young Joseph to Egypt where he was sold as a slave to Potiphar, one of king Pharaoh's officials. Separated from all his family and friends Josephs future looked grim. We read in Genesis 39:2 ... the Lord was with Joseph and he prospered. When Potiphar saw that the Lord was with Joseph and that he gave him success in all he did, he favored Joseph and put him in charge of every thing in his household.



Just when Joseph thought life was finally going his way he was falsely accused of rape by the bosses wife, who was sexually obsessed with his handsome looks and well built body. Joseph refused her repeated sexual request stating, "My master has with held nothing from me except you, because you are his wife. How then could I do such a wicked thing and sin against God?" - (Genesis 39:9). With her wounded pride she sets Joseph up by telling her husband Potiphar, that he tried to rape her. Potiphar burns with anger and puts Joseph in prison for a crime he didn't commit. Once again we see in Genesis 39:21-22, the Lord was with him; He showed him kindness and granted him favor in the eyes of the prison warden. (22) So the warden put Joseph in charge of all those held in the prison, and he was made responsible for all that was done there.



Ending up in prison and under his attendance, was the king of Egypt's cupbearer and baker. One night the cupbearer and baker had a dream. When Joseph came to them the next morning he saw that they were dejected and asked why they were so sad. They informed him they each had a dream but had no one to interpret them. It just so happens, Joseph had a talent given by God of dream interpretation. He said to them, "Do not interpretations belong to God? Tell me your dreams." They did and Joseph gave them the meaning of their dreams. He told the chief cup breaer he would be restored to his position with the Pharaoh with in three days. He then told the chief baker in Gen. 40: 19, "With in three days Pharaoh will lift off your head and hang you on a tree. And the birds will eat away your flesh." All of which came true just as Joseph had said.



TELL ME YOUR DREAMS


A full two years passed, when the Pharaoh had two dreams which no one could interpret. The chief cupbearer remembered Joseph had correctly interpreted his and the deceased bakers dream while in prison, and told the Pharaoh the course of events exactly as they had occurred. We read in Gen. 41: 14-16, So Pharaoh sent for Joseph, and he was quickly brought from the dungeon. When he had shaved and changed his clothes, he came before Pharaoh. (15) Pharaoh said to Joseph, "I had a dream, and no one can interpret it. But I have heard it said of you that when you hear a dream you can interpret it." (16) "I cannot do it," Joseph replied to Pharaoh, "but God will give Pharaoh the answer he desires." 



Joseph tells the king the meaning of his two dreams, both of which were one in the same. There would be seven years of abundance, followed by seven years of famine. He reaffirmed to Pharaoh that God had showed him what He was about to do. Gen. 41:39-40 Then Pharaoh said to Joseph, "Since God has made all this known to you is there no one so discerning and wise as you. (40) You shall be in charge of my palace, and all my people are to submit to your orders. Only with respect to the throne will I be greater than you."



OBEDIENCE TO GOD BRINGS FAVOR FROM GOD



Joseph was made prime minister of Egypt and Pharaoh gave Joseph, who was a Hebrew now thirty years of age, a new name, Zaphenath-Paneah. He also gave him Asenath, daughter of Potiphera, priest of On, to be his wife. Joseph's coat of many colors had long been gone but God replaced them with clothes and finery fit for a king, and he received a wife ordained by God as well. God takes care of his children and blesses their obedience! Then God allowed his grace, mercy and love to reunite Joseph with his brothers, who traveled to Egypt during the famine looking for food. At first they did not know it was their brother Joseph in charge. But through a series of events planned by Joseph, the truth became known (Genesis 45:1-14).



WHAT SATAN MEANT FOR HARM, GOD USES FOR OUR GOOD



Genesis 45:1-14, "Then Joseph could no longer control himself before all his attendants, and he cried out. "Have everyone leave my presence!" So there was no one with Joseph when he made himself known to his brothers. (2) And he wept so loudly that the Egyptians heard him, and Pharaoh's household heard about it. (3) Joseph said to his brothers, "I am Joseph! Is my father living?" But his brothers were not able to answer him, because they were terrified at his presence. (4) Then Joseph said to his brothers, "Come close to me", When they had done so, he said, "I am your brother Joseph, the one you sold into Egypt! (5) And now, do not be distressed and do not be angry with yourselves for selling me here, because it was to save lives that God sent me ahead of you. (6) For two years now there has been famine in the land, and for the next five years there will not be plowing and reaping. (7) But God sent me ahead of you to preserve for you a remnant on earth and to save your lives by a great deliverance. (8) "So then, it was not you who sent me here, but God. He made me father to Pharaoh, lord of his entire household and ruler of all Egypt. (9) Now hurry back to my father and say to him, ""This is what your son Joseph says: God has made me lord of all Egypt. Come down to me; don't delay. (10) You shall live in the region of Goshen and be near me - you, your children and grandchildren, your flocks and herds, and all you have. (11) I will provide for you there, because five years of famine are still to come. Otherwise you and your household and all who belong to you will become destitute.' (12) "You can see for yourselves, and so can my brother Benjamin, that it is really I who am speaking to you. (13) Tell my father about all the honor accorded me in Egypt and about everything you have seen. And bring my father down here quickly." (14) Then he threw his arms around his brother Benjamin and wept, and Benjamin embraced him, weeping. (15) And he kissed all his brothers and wept over them.



Joseph and his father were joyously reunited and his entire family and offspring brought to Egypt as Joseph had instructed, and God had confirmed (Genesis 46:3).  There they were given the best land that Egypt had to offer, by Pharaoh himself. Joseph also provided his father and his brothers and all his father's house hold with food according to the number of their children, during the devastating famine. During his life time Joseph went through periods of abandonment, loneliness and personal injustice. But it was his trials which latter equipped him for his triumph's.



What was Josephs secret to success? He never wavered or compromised his faith in God nor did he ever play the blame game. He realized God was in control of his life, and though times were often difficult, he remained steadfast and true to his convictions. As he matured, his spirit and attitude changed into a heart of forgiveness, compassion, humility and kindness. He wasn't bitter with God while in the cistern pit or the dungeon - prison, nor was he arrogantly proud in the palace.



After Jacob had passed away, Joseph's brothers became fearful that he would hold a grudge against them. Genesis 50:18-21 His brothers then came and threw themselves down before him, "We are your slaves," they said. (19) But Joseph said to them, "Don't be afraid. Am I in the place of God? (20) You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives. (21) So then, don't be afraid. I will provide for you and your children." And he reassured them and spoke kindly to them.



A HIGHER PURPOSE AND PLAN



Joseph knew his life's circumstances and his lesson's of experience had God's wisdom and knowledge to achieve a higher purpose and plan. Have you experienced trails of adversity? Like Joseph, has your life included times of injustice, abandonment, and abuse? Does loneliness, pain and sorrow encompass your spirit? Dejected and neglected you may feel like giving up. I have learned that while I may not always understand my life's journey, I know that God does. And by His wisdom, providence and love, He is making me into the person He created me to be. By allowing Him to be the potter, and me the clay, I know I am on the right path to accomplishing my divine destiny. Like Joseph, in a spirit of forgiveness I too can say, "While others intended to harm me, God intended it for good." As a child of the King of kings, and Lord of lords, Jesus Christ, he will do the same for you!



RELATED SCRIPTURAL INSIGHTS



Deuteronomy 28: 1, "If you fully obey the Lord your God and carefully follow all His commands I give you today, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations on earth."


Proverbs 8:35 "For whoever finds Me finds life and receives favor from the Lord."

Isaiah 41:10, "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."



Psalm 16:11, "You have made known to me the path of life; You will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at Your right hand."



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